Tuesday, December 06, 2011
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
- i got A*AB and will be going to exeter to read english.
- i have not gained or lost a significant amount of weight, just slightly tanner.
- i have been doing a lot of shopping, in both hong kong and england.
- i have now started watching jersey shore and cannot stay away from it. it makes me laugh so hard i cry a little.
Saturday, August 06, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
Thursday, June 30, 2011
so last night as i was waiting for justin to turn up and have drinks with me i did a spot of shopping in wanchai's various cheap shoe shops and chain stores. i didn't photograph everything i bought; i bought two pairs of sheer patterned tights, lace pop socks, a black h&m skirt and underwear that i couldn't be bothered to take decent photos of...i'm lazy on holiday.
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
Friday, June 03, 2011
being crushed there's a deadweightdeadhate sitting on my chest hitting me where it hurts and i am being crushed. and i can't get up because i'm tied to all of you and you drag me down into the slime. although i don't mean to blame any of you for this deadhate because i criticise and destroy myself piece by piece without any help at all because i can because i can because i can't fucking move from this i can't move away from it.
consumed by an enormous hound of guilt i scream inside, but i can't have you hear me won't have you hear my thoughts. bringing myself to a point where i can't disappoint and then i do and so i lose again. this isn't even a game anymore but i still fucking lose time after time and i'm starting to believe that i won't ever get to winning. not even a top ten but surely enough that would be worse. i don't want to be an almost. i don't want to be a not quite. i want to be exceptional, or truly disgraceful because to be competent or adequate merely leads to my mediocrity. my mediocre life and my mediocre mind and my mediocre existence. and i don't ever want that.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Sunday, May 08, 2011
i remember a long time ago when i wasn't obsessed with hosiery. my god i could spend a thousand pounds on this site easily. every style they have comes in about 50 colours; basically my idea of heaven. since they ship from the US when i get money to order them, i'll be ordering in bulk. when you're paying $15 for shipping you'd better make it worth your while..
neil gaiman is a genius
i need to complete my sandman collection; so far i have brief lives, a game of you and dream country. and i need MOREEE
as always i end up at AA. and as always i'm having LBD fever. i should note that LBD also means long black dress in my case, as i've fallen in love with the baby rib long dress. the velvet tank pencil dress and the nylon tricot pencil dress are just more of my loves. and i must have the u-neck dress in several more colours.
christ i only ever want things when i haven't any money :(
Thursday, May 05, 2011
* the world is quiet here - lemony snicket, a series of unfortunate events. in the font from the books, which is a kind of typewriter font.
* you don't have to stay anywhere forever - neil gaiman
* we are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams - roald dahl, charlie and the chocolate factory.
* tomorrow never knows - the beatles
*be resolute - marlowe's dr faustus
and i'm thinking things through properly, obviously. to be honest i don't see a way i would ever regret getting any of these tattoos, but i'm thinking about which ones i desperately love, and which ones i merely like. and i'll definitely be getting more ideas gathered before i make a decision. but i particularly adore the lemony snicket one, so that's a definite one for me.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
films i've watched recently
films i need to watch
and nadia insists that i watch orphan, the kids, ken park and gummo but i'm pretty much a huge pussy and will only watch them in broad daylight. after our stephen king marathon, including it, i'm terrified. that clown is a scary motherfucker, and i'm not even scared of clowns.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
hello there. is this what heaven's like? parma ham, some crazily disgusting-smelling goat's cheese, more other cheese...man it was beautiful.
the only picture i managed to get of the goldmember 'shmoke and a pancake' series. this would be cigar and a waffle, and it was also delicious.